I’ve been asking myself lately, what is it about travel that is so compelling to me? WHY do I want to travel, aside from the obvious reasons?
I was looking through my travel notebook the other day and found this list I made from about the halfway point of my trip.
What do I want?
*To be creative
*To have time
“This trip has fed my soul but now I’m afraid I’ll be hungry for more for the rest of my life.” Again, that word “afraid.” What am I afraid of?
Somewhere in Eastern Europe I was on the train and listening to the CBC radio Q podcast with Jian Gomeshi. He was interviewing Shania Twain and she was talking about her divorce and getting through hard times. This quote just resonated with me and I wrote it down to remember for later.
“Liberation means not living under the thumb of fear.”
I feel like I’ve been living under fears thumb for years! What a perfect way to put it into words. I felt empowered taking my trip, but the fear has crept back in that I won’t be able to do it again. I’m slowly shoveling out my doubts and fears and trying to replace them with hope and the confidence in my ability that I can create my life, rather than let it just happen to me.
Ideally I would make my art and sell it at craft shows, farmers markets and small galleries. Then I’d travel to re-fuel my creativity tank, come home, and repeat. In a perfect world I’d go on some sort of a trip every 3 months (Oh, to dream!) blog on the road and hopefully have some avenues of income that involve travel writing. I know it’s possible. I see other bloggers doing it. I just want it NOW! Patience grasshopper. Patience.
I don’t think I could do what a lot of people do and sell everything and be a total nomad. I LOVE my home. I’m a home body by nature, and feel unhinged when I don’t have a stable home base. Plus, I’d miss my honey if I was away all the time. Thankfully he understands my need to explore, and my need to do it on my own. And my pup Henry? I couldn’t leave him for 6 months again. I need to have my re-fresh and re-charge time.
I find talking about what I want seems to make things come to fruition, so the next few months will probably bring many more blog posts just like this, only they’ll hopefully be peppered with small successes, which I’ll be sure to report here as well. Bring it on!